I'm so sorry to hear about baby Meko and your other two babies. Thank you for your message. I am happy to hear that you have a blessing named Hana and that NFP worked for you. I wanted to let you know the corrected link for the ministry above:
It is hard to find Catholic resources, but there are some. I have had my son's name written in the book of life at The Church of Holy Innocents. It is nice to know that people pray for our babies there:
After almost five years, one would think I have this bereaved parent thing under control. Well, I have the grief part under control thatís for sure. I havenít had a lack of sadness during this time. Iíve had happy moments, too, of course. I have found that the closer I get to August (his 5th birthday would have been 8/29) the more my chest starts to hurt. Man, I miss my son.
I have been making burial sets (crochet) for the last few months. I make a few sets to give to the hospital on Xavierís birthday every year. Iím sure thatís encouraging my feelings a little. Iíve set them aside for awhile. Sometimes I wonder if Iím too close to the pain to be able to make these little sets. I donít know. I make them because I know how wonderful it was to have those items when I planned Xís funeral. It was one less worry. I didnít know what I was going to bury him in...it was solved for me in the form of these beautiful, little outfits along with the many other items I was given.
Everyone seems to say that time flies. It doesnít when one has lost a child. It feels like Iíve lived a lifetime without him.