OCD/Scrupulosity Group

Lightofthewords , very awsome links. I have looked at some of them and very powerful. Thank you for posting.

-Mark

Kevin, how right you are when you say the doubts and fears gnaw at you! I know sometimes they just wear me down. About this time, I want to give up, but I know I can't. I sort of feel like this right now. I am fighting through it! I just keep on moving forward!

-Mark

Beautiful passage lightofthewords.

BB77--As usual I think Mark (Mustang) has a very insightful post. That behavior most definitely sounds like OCD to me. I would suggest setting up a confession with your priest outside the normal confession time so you won't feel rushed. Make a good confession, then if he has time, explain your situation and look for guidance. Some priests are pretty knowledgeable about OCD/scrupulosity. Then FOLLOW his advice, regardless of your feelings. We OCD people feel anxious about things a lot. I also know the feeling you've described of being anxious, distracted, etc. That's when you need to pray. And try to focus on others, not yourself. It's HARD, I know. I try and fail at this, the anxieties and doubts and fears gnaw at you sometimes I know.

My advice as a fellow OCDer, set up a time for a 1 on 1 with your priest. Ask if he would be comfortable being your confessor, or if he knows someone who is more proficient in dealing with the condition.

Remember Jesus took on ALL sins. NEVER be afraid to go to Confession, He already knows what you've done, and is waiting to forgive you in the Confessional. Remember the priests have heard everything.

Hope I've helped some.

God Bless
Kevin

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Everything can speak to you of My love, if only you will listen with the Spirit’s ear.

My presence with you, My love for you, are the things in which you rest…… they encircle your life. Think much of the indivisibility of the trusting child and its Maker. My gift to you is the sense of My nearness. This sense must touch every aspect of your life…..Always see, in Me, the One who has promised what no-one else could, able to convert those promises into a wonderful reality; they are not too good to be true! My promises are not lost by human failings, provided that, in sorrow over failure, My path is resolutely taken again, with a reaching-out to Me for renewal.

Tell Me at the start of each day of your intention to keep in the way which I have shown you. My way, applied to the details of that day, will then be increasingly clear to you. Make use of all that I have given you. Are you trusting My promises? It is that or nothing.

I will never forget you- your image
Is on the palms of My hands

(Isaiah 49:16)

BB77
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I am so angry and disgusted with myself because I barely even felt tempted, it was as if I set my mind on the sin and went through with it even though if I tried I know I could have avoided it. I felt like God was giving me ways out and I was avoiding them.
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Welcome Blackberrys77! I think you will find a lot of support here! We all face a difficult cross to carry with the OCD. It really clouds our thinking and a lot of times we are never really sure of ourselves.

I think the feeling that you have contaminated everything is your OCD expressing itself in a different way. OCD can take the form of a fear of contamination. I went through a phase when I was younger, I worried that if I touched certain things I would pick up germs and get sick or be contaminated in some other way. If you read up on OCD this is just any symptom of the condition.

Remember that the purpose of confession is for us to be forgiven by God. If we are honest in confession and confess all our mortal sins and are sincerely sorry for our sins, we are forgiven! Plus you also gain additional graces to help us fight of temptation! God has forgiven us and we need to forgive ourselves!

If you have time it might be helpful to schedule an appointment with a Priest and talk to him. If you can't make it during the week, go to confession this weekend and explain the situation to him. I am sure he can also give you some good advice. Remember that the Priest has probably heard just about everything. He might not completely understand the OCD condition, but I think a lot of Priests know how to give advice on Scrupulosity.

I have found this group to be very helpful in dealing with my OCD / Scrupulosity. Sometimes just talking about what is troubling us can really be helpful! I would say whatever you do, don't stress out over the situation, this will only make it worse. Spend some time in prayer, stop by the church and see if you can stop in the chapel and spend some time with Jesus. While you are there, just talk to him and I think you will find some peace.

I know it is very difficult, but try not to focus on these thoughts. Keep your self busy, keep your mind occupied with other activities. I had times where I did not want to do anything, but just lay in bed or watch tv and all I did was focus on these thoughts. Did not help me one bit. What helped me was getting out doing my daily activities. While I was out, I tried to be cheerful to others and helpful to them. I found that being in service to others does help me to fend of these destructive thoughts!

God Bless and I hope you find some relief!
-Mark

Hi everyone, I'm new here. And I can really use some help. My anxiety and OCD has been out of control for the past 3 days. It was "latent" for a while in a much milder form, but now it is back due to a sin I committed a few days ago.

I have struggled with this sin since I was little. I was able to turn from this sin for a while, but then I committed it again a few days ago. I am so angry and disgusted with myself because I barely even felt tempted, it was as if I set my mind on the sin and went through with it even though if I tried I know I could have avoided it. I felt like God was giving me ways out and I was avoiding them.

After I committed the sin I felt so disgusted, that I started thinking that I had contaminated everything around me by sinning. It is this particular sin that haunts me and makes me feel like this. Since I felt like I was contaminating everything, I took the clothes I was wearing and my sheets and washed them, then put them in a donation bin because I couldn't be around them. Then I started thinking that I had contaminated my mattress and bed, and started thinking of ways to get rid of them. I told my mom that my (pretty new) mattress was uncomfortable (which is partially true but that is not why I wanted to get rid of it) and that I wanted to try to return it. Then I started thinking that I had contaminated everything in my house that we got since I last committed the sin. Like everything before I committed this sin was pure, and with how disgusting the sin was, I "ruined" all of this stuff around me. I couldn't sleep on my bed last night. I also have intrusive bad thoughts about my family and just a lot of bad OCD thoughts. I get angry at God over them.

Yesterday morning I went to church and I said the prayer of confession with the congregation and then the priest absolved us. Afterwards, I knew that I was forgiven, but still very anxious about having contaminated everything. This morning I did not go to work. I told my mom that I needed her to stay with me because I wasnt feeling well, so she called out of work too. I was torn about whether I should tell her because I don't like to upset her with my burdens. I told her that I was feeling sick and anxious and she asked why and I told her everything. She said not to worry and that God has forgiven me and that many people fall into the same sin, and that we sometimes give in to temptation.

I felt much better after speaking to my mom, but I still do have anxiety about having contaminated everything. I also feel like if my other family members knew, they would be disgusted by me. It feels almost like I committed a major crime and no one knows about it. So I am carrying on today in a very distracted, anxious, and sad state. I feel like I ruined everything around me by committing this sin which I thought I had overcome, maybe for good. I'm angry and disgusted with myself. I am trying to find comfort in God's word and others' experiences. Any comments or anything you can share will be appreciated.

May God bless you all.

taye, sorry to hear that you had a rough 3 weeks. I have read that others have managed to get over Scrupulosity. I agree that only God can cure us, but we need to work with him also. I would say just pick yourself up and get back on the road to healing. God Bless and hope this week is better for you!

-Mark

Hi everyone!

I made the mistake of thinking I was "healed" from my affliction. My pride got a hold of me as I thought "I" cured myself. Well, because of that, the last three weeks have been soo hard. Only God can fully cure me, if He wills it. Now, I just have to help myself.

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