Are there Franciscans near where you live? Maybe one of the priests can help you. if not, you could email one. I have an anglican use priest who helps me with evangelization. He doesn't live close to me.
You are in my prayers and I'm always here to listen.
Padre Pio appeared to me on 12.6.2003. He appeared in a dream and blessed me. I then found spontaneously a way on which I could well get through a difficult time. Padre Pio told me: "Heal yourself. You will get all the help you need."