Having a difficult time this evening with illness post-Hurricane Sandy and how it is interfering with the already difficult practical matters involved in my divorce/regional move. Love my son to death and so glad he is here. Is it okay to love the Beatles and a Frankie Valli song from my childhood? I'm trying to figure out if I still love my husband AS a husband and if not who he was to me.
Currently residing in apt in SE PA, near my parents and my son, parents hassling me and wasn't getting along in town too well, it's hard to move back up North from Florida. But it's a joy and comfort to see my son. Hurricane Sandy passed through last week, and I got to stay with my son in his oil-stove-heated "cottage" at my parents house, with him and his two new kittens, who chased me off the 3-seater couch again and again! So I slept on the 2-seater.
Still recovering from the chill I got while the power was out, was waiting on delivery of my car at the apt so I had to stay here through the storm last week and only had an air mattress to sleep on--the cold air just cycled right back under me. Then went to Mom and Dad's when it turned out car carrier couldn't reach me here and had to go there anyway. This morning I took delivery of my new bed and slept ALL DAY. It was blissful.
Saw a dermatologist today who was DELIGHTFUL! and was able to explain the weird stuff going on with my skin and what to do and not to worry.
Now I'm able to enjoy my stay in this motel as a brief vacation, which I needed. I trust.
I trust in the Lord, that He is good. I trust that He loves me and does not want to harm me. I trust in prayer. I trust in Divine Mercy. I repent and I believe. Hallelujah!
Up today! ER called with analysis results and called in a scrip for antibiotics so I have cancelled all my appts., thank goodness, I was starting to freak out, you can't think when you have a bladder infection the pain is so distressing, and I was getting paranoid. Now? Bored but relieved. Encouragement from P.R. counselor and son. Thank you for your prayers.
Went to the ER late in the night last night just to avoid sitting up alone by myself (also suffering abdominal pain and UTI for the last week.) Left because they kept me waiting too long, picked up anti-fungual at my 24-hr pharmacy on the way home, figured out that was the problem, women know, (too many antibiotics recently) and feeling much better. Hope to get my days and nights turned back around.
Please forgive my disenchanted sentiments expressed in my prayer intentions thread, "an end to division in the church." I continue to strive toward becoming a Catholic Christian, I just don't get along in S. Florida.
"Souls perish in spite of My bitter passion. I am giving them the last hope of salvation, that is, recourse to My Mercy. If they will not adore My mercy, [trust in God's goodness] they will perish for all eternity"--Diary of St. M. Faustina Kowalska