Hi, thanks for your message

I feel similarly.. I went to the Novus Ordo this past Sunday and it was difficult and even painful for me. I still need to go to Mass on Sundays but i'm hoping that soon, a Latin Mass would come to my area. One thing I don't understand, is how does all this relate to the authority of the Church... I mean, - I dont know if I'm being disobedient by not fully accepting the Mass that the Church has approved..however, from my research, many things in the Novus Ordo Mass have NOT actually originated from the Vatican or the Pope. In fact, many things that we do not find spiritually helpful, came from disobedience to Rome and to the rubrics - or started in disobedience. I do accept that it's Sacramentally valid, that the essence of the Mass is still there, I just think that it needs to be fixed in parts - and when that happens, it will be more similar to the TLM. I even think that one day we would all go back to the TLM. what do you think? God bless
