I have been a walking bag of instability, and insanity with religions. I have sincerely professed my faith in more than 20 Christian denominations, 3 Jewish denominations, more than 5 forms of Islam, Sikhism, 2 forms of Buddhism, Thelema, all four major forms of Hinduism plus a couple of minor ones, 3 forms of Satanism, four forms of paganism, I have created my own religion out of frustration several times, and have followed the extremes from National Socialism to Marxism, from monarchism to Libertarianism... and have been an avowed atheist for 9 months now after having been a Muslim for two years...
I have sincerely believed in all of these. No I am not actually mentally ill, though the subject has come up as a joking matter many a time by my wife, God bless her.
I want this to stop. I cannot seem to believe in one thing and stick with that. I cant stand being like this. I have prayed about it in tears for hours on end to God, God through Christ, Mary, Allah, et cetera for 12+ years to no avail. I have always been attracted to the Catholic faith, but I don't want to do this to myself and my (atheist) wife anymore. Neither one of us can take it anymore.
Please for the love of God, what should I do??