Originally Posted by FeelingLost1905
I do want to go very soon. I'm tired of feeling the way I do.
Please, please go at your first opportunity. The longer you put it off, the worse it is. You feel so wretched, but perhaps dread the actually 'doing' of confessing -- but by putting it off, you are essentially refusing the medicine that God is offering you that will make you feel so much better.
And so you go around with this weight, and disgusting feelings, and stress and anxiety, for no reason at all. And then when you do finally go, you think, why the heck did I wait so long?!
And you feel like going around grinning and dancing. Don't wait.
I also am near an adoration chapel but haven't gone in a couple of weeks. Some part of me feels like I am too dirty right now to go in. I need to stop thinking like this.
Stop thinking like that!!! Those are the lies of Satan
, who wants nothing more than to convince you that you are "too dirty" to adore God, that you are "unworthy" of His Mercy. Absolute rubbish.
Every one of us is a sinner in some way or form. We don't deserve His Mercy, but He offers it anyway out of His infinite Love. Don't ever
let sin prevent you from running to God, or going to Adoration. It is then that you need Him most.
Listen to Jesus
' own words:
"Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick; I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." -- Mark 2:17
Satan will do everything in his power to convince you not to go to Adoration; not to pray, not to run to God and implore His Mercy. He wants to convince you that you are "too dirty." Don't listen to him. Listen to Jesus
, who longs
for you, thirsts
for you. He thirsts for your love, for your presence. He longs to hear His Name on your lips, as a lover longs to hear his beloved say his name. He longs to plunge you into the depths of His Mercy, and to heal your wounds. Run to Him, without fear, and cast all your sins and weaknesses and sorrows at His feet.
I need to get better at re-focusing my thoughts.
There's a Padre Pio quote somewhere about this, how continuing to think
about the temptation, the sin that is presented to you, only makes it much more likely
that you will give in and fall. So the key is to redirect your thoughts and think about something else entirely. Especially, I think, with sexual sins, which have a tendency to 'stick' in your mind and weaken your resolve the more you think about it and the temporary gratification. But remind yourself
: whenever I give in, how do I feel afterwards? Do I feel at peace? Or do I feel disgusting, horrible, ashamed, filthy? Make the positive choice that will ensure peace and happiness. Remind yourself why
this sin is wrong, and why you don't
want to participate in it. Say, out loud if possible, that you re-commit yourself to saving yourself for your future husband. Remind yourself how precious a gift your virginity is. I saw somewhere else the suggestion to use this: say out loud (or mentally), and mean it: "In the name of Jesus Christ, Son of the living God, I reject that thought."
(the thought being, of course, the temptation or sinful thought) Say it more than once if you need to.
So learn how to re-focus your thoughts: by praying, getting up and doing something (dancing, walking, running, jumping jacks, etc), go bake cookies, read a book, paint your nails, clean out your purse, your desk, your closet, write a letter to your grandmother, sing an entire song (a favorite hymn?), anything
but thinking about the temptation and the sin. And before you know it, the temptation will have faded, and you will have accomplished something else good, without giving in.
I will continue to pray for you!
When you are tempted to look at porn or to indulge in impure, lustful thoughts, remember this verse, and choose accordingly:
"Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."
-- Philippians 4:8