Let me introduce myself. I'm a 21 year old female that attends a catholic university. I've been with my boyfriend for a little over a year and a half. I was brought up and am still strong in my catholic faith. My boyfriend understands this and does attend church with me. He is amazing and everything I could dream to have in a boyfriend. We had discussed how I wanted to wait until marriage for sex because of my religion. He respected and agreed when I brought it up. Unfortunately, last weekend, I made a huge mistake and had premarital sex.
It was quick and I know that does not make it any better. The thing is, the whole time, as much as I wanted to, all I could think was 'is this really happening'. I still can't believe that it happened....and I'm not saying I didn't like it at all....but I do wish that it hadn't happened. My main question is that, I know that is an extremely serious sin and I don' tknow what to do about it. I think that since it's a mortal sin, that if I do confess it at confession, then "it doesn't really count" because it's so serious. I want help in finding out what to do. I hope to hear back soon, I can't help but thinking about it.