Problems with Psychiatrist

[leeray]

Dear Curious,
I just wanted to express some heartfelt sympathy about your Pshch. control over your work. I know I would really chaffe at those bonds! I know it is rediculous but I get so angry over the idea that I am not responsible enough to control my own self - but then again - if I was responsible I wouldn't be on 4 kinds (6 tabs) a nite! Our disease is a very humbling one. That's why I say we are 'gifted by God" because we are His special children and He will never let us wander, we are the Lamb upon our Good Shephard's Shoulders.
Back to the meds. You might get a kick to know that I've been up to 400 Sero. and it doesn't stop this girl's Mania! It's very interesting to me how different meds relate with different brains. I guess that's why the Pshch. went to all that med school
God Bless You,
Leeray

[Curious]

Humbling is right, sister. I'm under more constraints now because of this than I ever thought I would be. Nobody enjoys being humbled. Nobody enjoys humiliation. But is humility not a virtue we should practice? Those of us who are restricted in their work, who have had to file disability, who take pill after pill after pill and resent every swallow, we have a good opportunity to recognize the humility it takes to submit to all these.....interventions.

Sometimes I say a big hearty "bah humbug" to all these interventions. When I'm feeling particularly weird, annoyed, miserable, and/or creative, I write a lot. Lets the poison out.

Curious