**You’re right, cmscms. I still sound like a teener. Only when it concerns my lovelife. You see, i have been fooled to believe that love existed. And I’ve had 6 boyfriends all in all since I started dating in my senior year in High School. Was engaged to be married 2x and both of which fizzled. Well, with my first fiance - it was I who called the engagement off because I waited 10yrs for his Catholic Church Annulment to be granted. By the time his marriage was Null and Void, I no longer had any love for him as he had character issues and not having sex for 8 yrs was also a factor that I fell out of love. 3yrs after a’d broken up with him, I met my 2nd fiance who, this time, was the one who called it quits because I was diagnosed with adenomyoma. A condition which allows me to conceive but NEVER bring the baby to full term. The baby dies in my womb as it gets crushed by my uterus that expands when I am with child.
I admit, I am very much ignorant with how men are when it concerns relationships. My best friend has taught me that all men are the same. Regardless. They only want one thing and after they get it, they’re done with you. She has warned me over and over about this present guy, but she also understands and feels for me as the same thing happened to her many moons ago, just not the same extent as mine. My father abandoned us 8 children and our mother pimped my older sisters. She almost did me too, but Divine Intervention spared my soul.
One of the main reasons why I am in love with this man is because he is very straight-forward and frank, he tells me to my face whatever truth I want to avoid.Though i am older, he even acts behaves and thinks like he is the one who is 37.
I will move on. Because I believe all of you guys that adviced me here are God-sent. And in my situation, i cannot see the truth, but it is revealed by the people who point it out to you. I am blinded.
Thank you for your prayers and yes, please do continue to pray for me. I am not out of the woods yet. I hope I was able to explain this to you all… I am not so good with words…
God bless you all, and peace!**