Hello fellow CAF members.
I simply request that maybe y’all could spare just a little bit of your time and prayers for me.
It may not be as grave as some of the other requests, but that doesn’t make it any easier.
I’ve felt pretty tormented lately. I’ve been labeled as a “perfectionist” since I was little, and I’ve been told by a therapist that I often have impossibly high expectations - especially for myself - that lead me to “beat myself up” (mentally - leading to low self-esteem) when I can’t achieve them. This, along with a terrible habit to procrastinate and a social awkwardness that almost feels crippling at times (especially when asking for help), had caused a huge weight on my being that has caused anxiety attacks in the past. Adding to this is the serious black mark on my soul keeping me from communion until I can get to confession (hopefully this Wednesday), which reminds me how far I have to go on my quest back to Catholicism after being away from it for so long.
In short, I just ask for support to regain my peace of mind and for some strength and confidence on my journey, most importantly of getting back to God.
Thank you. :signofcross: