I know what you mean...the question is to be, or not to be, a Saint wannabe. Do we want to go to heaven and please God the most possible or not. Be perfect as your Father(and Mother Mary) are perfect, Jesus said...nothing less than perfection and holiness enters God's House. Only what is of God and for God, entirely, can be with God. No admixture with anything or anyone, not of God, at all. Pure light next to the Light, no shadow or stain. We were made for excellence, to be abnormal, above the norm, not below...we are not mutants or misfits but meant to be the ideal and more-God's Dream come true! To strive for anything less is scandalous, insulting, offensive to Divine Mercy and it is blasphemous to suggest that the Gospel is unrealistic, not attainable, and an only an ideal to spur us to be fully human according to liberal ideals.
God is fair. He never proposes a goal without giving us the means to attain it. He invites to Jesus Truth and Life and proposes the Way. Jesus is the Way to Jesus, through Mary. No shortcuts around the Way of the Cross. Never Jesus without the Cross and HIs Mother.
We know this and we would not settle for anything less, deep down. It is when dissapointed, with ourselves, we are tempted to settle for less than what God intended for us. No one wants to blush before God because I only became 99.9% of what I was meant to be...We would fly to Purgatory or back down to earth to rectify this a.s.a.p.
The question is: How do we get there?and why do we settle for less?
This is where humility, patience, goodness, kindness, compassion and all the fruit salad of the Spirit, the virtues of Jesus and Mary come into play. Meek and humble of heart, Jesus says. He asks us to learn this virtue from Him. It is the only virtue He asks us to learn directly from Him, along with doing as He has done, after the washing of the feet-humility and purity and charity in action.
I get eruptions of orthodoxy too when I hear people give their advice...but there is a reason, a story of self-dissapointment behind it, and sadly, usually, an authority figure of faith-a Priest for example-who gave them a liberal we're only human! lame excuse for justifying their sin...We must have ourhearts transpierced by these half-truths and lies and listen to their pain before we become too harsh. I go to Mary and vent my frustration and She always says: Congratulations! Now you know what God and His Mother feel like a tiny little bit! and you catch only a glimpse of the lukewarmness of one or two souls?! of your time?! And you, where would you be today without all that My Son and I have given you? Do you realize how many times we snatched you from the fire?and bailed you out? and prevented all those things you said will never happen to you, and that still can, if you are not careful?
Feel zeal but be real. Without being spoiled by grace, we would be much worse than those we criticize. Clear the Temple, by all means. Inspire, give heart, give the strength of a spiritual Samson, an unstoppable Salomon, a relentless King David, an inflamed Saint Paul, an impassioned Saint Peter and so on, but remember how they learned about God's Mercy and Truth. They all fell short of the Glory of God. Wisdom, strength and zeal withoutt humility led to impurity, adultery, idolatry and self-idolatry and persecution of Jesus. This is what helps me stay balanced and fearless and bold in denouncing sin and promoting virtue.
Not even the angles were pure enough...only God's Mama never let Him down...The only one who really loves God is His Mother-no one can love God like His Mother and God can only fully love and be loved by someone in His Mother, who is inseparable from His Son. That is Her role. To make us perfect as He is perfect. She is the mold of the God-Man and of all true men and women of God.
God chose Her because She is all Humility. All Pure, Beautiful, Sinless...yes...but God made Her that way. Without humility, She would be the queen of spiritual snobs, but She is not. This is paraphrasing Saint Bernard of Clairvaux and others.
She is not a coward, we are cowards. Her humility and gentleness and firmness are stronger than the arrogance and presumption of the world. One of Her tears falling into hell cause the devils more pain than all their other torments since their first fall...
I agree with you, totally. The more I get frustrated as you do, the more I seek the virtue most required for salvation before all others-humility. Our Lady of Virtues and merits, pray for us! Pray that I stay in Mary. Spiritual joy, and peace is the sign that we are ready to listen to the pain of the modern day Samaritan men and women, Mary Magdalenes and Pauls and Peters and other assorted sinners.
Don't let the devil have the last word. Suffer with a smile as you listen and ask Our Lady: How can I make a difference? when I see they have no more wine?they only whine? and She will season your words, action, thoughts and desires with the irresistible truth of the Gospel. The right word, the right way, the right attitude, at the right time. She is the Ideal, She is Real, She is our Point of Reference for all virtue with Her Son in the Spirit. By the time the Father, Jesus and their Spirit of Truth, are through reforming us, we will all be more or less like Her.
It is an honor to read your thoughts and inspiring to listen to you! I wish I could have more courage like you!