Hi! I’m a fairly recent convert (been Catholic 7 years) and I know there are a few of you on this forum who may be starting your journey into the Church.
Maybe you’re here for information, advice, a paddle to help you row home. Maybe you’re here in the hopes of growing a Catholic family.
I was once where you are. I’ll never forget the months leading up to my conversion. It was the most exciting time. I remember all the stories from my Catholic family and friends.
I heard stories about people who felt the power of Christ upon receiving their first communion.
I heard stories of people driven to tears of joy.
I heard stories of all these wonderful, powerful, exciting Eucharistic moments upon reception into the Church.
The night of my confirmation I received the Eucharist… and there was no powerful spirit, there was no emotional impact… I went home that night and cried myself to sleep. Was there something wrong with me?
All these people had shared such powerful stories of their reception into the Church and I had felt nothing. I truly and honestly felt disappointment.
I struggled with that disappointment for months after but gradually got over it.
At the time I tried to reach out and talk to someone about the disappointment I was feeling but the reception was basically people telling me I obviously didn’t believe in the Eucharist because if I did I would have felt something…
As you can imagine, that reception did not help what I was feeling or struggling with.
But that’s why I’m here. I’m here to present a counter-balance to all the wonderful conversion stories you might be hearing. To calm the hype a little with some reality.
Not everyone will feel anything the night of their first communion/reception into the Church.
That doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you. Maybe you’re just less emotional than other people. Maybe God didn’t feel you needed such reassurance. Maybe it just isn’t your time for that kind of experience.
And it’s okay.
The Eucharist is still Christ.
You are still being received into the Church.
You are still now part of a much larger family in Christ.
It’s okay if that moment isn’t followed by profound signs from God and uncontrollable emotion.
We each are given exactly what we need.