I am a 21 year old male who was raised Catholic and unfortunately have often had an inconsistent faith life. I have often struggled with belief in God and have never been able to get into a consistent faith routine since I was about 13. That being said I have always had an interest in my Catholic faith and even spoke with priests about the possibility of a vocation. Obviously this vocation never developed because I was not totally serious in my faith. Recently I have had an experience of mild, subclinical OCD that has brought me a lot of guilt, but also a real gift of maturity and responsibility. I think that I can use this cross in some sense to help me develop a healthy faith life. And I hope to bring myself back to the Catholic Church.
I have been thinking back on my past sins. At the age of 18, I did a general confession and I believe I confessed the sin of sacrilege in a blanket sense. I often spoke of God in ways that were profane. However, in addition to this, on two occasions at the age of 17 my roommate and I held a Mass in my room in a mocking fashion for about 3 people (one time there was two people, the next time there was only 1 other person). This was carried out in a jocular fashion. I have been reading about this offense and supposedly this is excommunicable however I have not been excommunicated because no clerical official was aware of this. What am I suppose to do if I want to bring my life back to the Catholic faith? Should I notify my bishop? I appreciate any answers you may have and ask for your prayers. And I want to apologize to all of you for my disrespect for our Eucharist.