I am starting to apply to colleges but am kind of lost in my discernment process. I am thinking about applying to college seminary but I don’t know if I should. I struggle with a lot of character flaws, pride I think being among the worst of them, and I don’t want to enter seminary because I confuse God’s calling with my personal preference (the priesthood to me seems more attractive than married or single life as a member of the laity).
I recently had an experience with a dying older friend of mine, whom I loved dearly, and in my final conversation with him, he told me to “be a good priest.” He was an extremely holy, humble, and devout man so I thought it could have been a sign from God. That being said however, my dad did tell him before hand I was wanting to enter seminary, but I find it weird that he didn’t say something like “discern God’s will,” or “go into seminary and leave if its not for you.” He spoke definitively.
Any thoughts on what I should do? My desire to serve God seems to be in constant conflict with my proud, almost Pharisee-like, Catholic nature.