This has happened to me repeatedly and instead of feeling freed by the grace of the sacrament I feel scared and perhaps even worse off.
I’ll go in for confession with say three mortal sins. I’ll name one and I can hardly finish my first sentence before the priest goes on with the absolution and asks for my act of contrition to send me on my merry way.
I don’t know what to do at this point. All I can think of is, “I’ve still got two mortal sins” and “how do I politely interrupt and get him to take me seriously?”
Usually I’ll quickly try to say “and for those sins I have forgotten I’m sorry” and just let the priest do this. Despite the fact I haven’t forgotten these sins at all, somehow I’m hoping this’ll cover the remaining two. But I know it doesn’t.
Sometimes I’ll try to stop the man and explain there’s more I’ve done, but often the priest does not humor me very well and will just cut me off again. Blowing them off as “not real sins” before I even say what they are.
Are the sins I ended up failing to say absolved? Should I be at peace that I have fully received the grace and forgiveness to restore me to communion with God? Or, should I stop the priests from blowing me off until I am sure I’ve named each and every mortal sin?
Today this particular priest, after hardly letting me get the first mortal sin out, left me with the words, “don’t take yourself too seriously”
And many would say, he’s right, but this is actually the same priest who I’ve caught multiple times saying heresies in his homilies (For example: Jesus said a lot of things that shocked the Jewish people such as He would destroy and rebuild the temple in three days. This priest equated their shock and disbelief to what ours would be if women priests were allowed in the Church tomorrow and said the Church hasn’t gotten to that point “yet”). He’s always a lot more focused on making you feel good than actually be good. I’m not looking for the attaboys, the “I’m sure what you’ve done isn’t that bad” when you don’t even know what I’ve done. If I wanted that kind of sugarcoating and babying and denial of my own fault, I think I’m part of the wrong church.
I’m trying to take my sins with the same seriousness God does, after all, it was for my sins His Son was crucified. I don’t want to take my sin lightly or my absolution from them when it was bought at such a high price and I would be damned without it.
I’m a sinner. I NEED absolution because I NEED God.
If someone could in fact, take me seriously, and explain what is true and why it is true regarding absolution, I’d be really grateful.