Recently, one of the priests at my parish commented that he thinks some people abuse confession. I got the feeling that I could very well be such a person. I’ve always been uncertain when I should go to confession, especially since I struggle with a recurrent, habitual sin, and it’s this recurrent sin which is usually the center of my confession. I kind of feel that both priests at my parish are kind of tired of hearing the same ol’ song and dance, as it were, especially since I’ve made such little progress and since it seems that I just cannot seem to rely upon God’s grace - and I really feel it’s to the point that the priests don’t expect to hear anything else from me.
My question is, though - how is it possible to abuse confession?
I want so dearly to confess monthly, and for it not to be about the same thing, but, well, it just seems that I have a problem and it’s taking an awfully long time to correct it. I get so mad at myself anymore, though, because not only do I have to bear the guilt of the sin, but I am frustrated to the point of tears wondering if I should go to confession sooner rather than later based on how serious it is or isn’t. My pastor thinks I should try relying more on the mercy of Christ when I enter into such sin rather than immediately running to confession, and maybe I should, but I feel so dirty, and (to be honest) my friendship with Christ is all I really have and when I damage that…well, I seemingly have nothing.
Anyway, beyond all this - how is possible to abuse confession? That’s my question.