This might be an odd question, but I’ve been going to Eucharistic Adoration for about two months now, and I love it, but I find it almost impossible to pray in words or meditate when I’m there. I’ve figured out what times are the silent periods, and usually I go during those, but I also go sometimes when there is vocal prayer, and in both cases, I seem almost incapable of praying in words, silently or out loud, or of thinking about anything, related to Jesus or not. It takes a great deal of effort, for instance, to pray the rosary, or talk to Jesus mentally. My mind doesn’t wander, it just doesn’t want to do anything at all.
This doesn’t happen to me outside of Adoration. At first I thought maybe I was just tired, but as soon as I leave the chapel I am able to pray and think normally again. At first I thought maybe it was a kind of temptation, but when I stop trying to pray that way, I am just overtaken by a sense of awe and wonder at being in Jesus’ Presence … which seems like a good thing and a kind of prayer, maybe? Has anybody else had this experience? Should I stop trying to pray mentally for the time being, or should I keep at it?