I'm currently studying Supply Chain Management (recently changed from Accounting) at Michigan State University. I haven't really liked the way it's done at MSU, because they tend to teach the classes as if the entire class is going to become a professor. Their Accounting department is well known to do everything humanly possible to make all of their students CPAs, even students that don't think the CPA is in their path. There's little grounding in reality, and all is theory. I would much prefer an apprenticeship, but I didn't know that about myself before I went to college. It doesn't seem necessary to get an $80,000 certificate saying the University approves me for the job market, especially when I'm not getting what I desired from the $80,000.
I've taken a few classes from the History department, and it's all about memorization of dates, and not the actual story. I knew pretty much everything in the class anyway (because of my reading of history in my free time), so it was only a waste of time because I just needed the credits. The Philosophy department isn't much better: the prevailing philosophy is not friendly, at least Kantian, maybe Marxist, but generally very illogical and Anti-Catholic. I have a friend who's a philosophy major, what I would call a Kantian agnostic, with whom I've been debating (and received compliments for my arguments). The religious studies department doesn't have that many options within it, and from researching it, I don't think it would help me in my path. Additionally, the FSSP's seminary in NE is very hesitant to accept transfer credits for canonical requirements and also to provide the Church with the best priests possible, which I completely understand.
I visited the FSSP's seminary in NE this last March, and while many had at least a Bachelor's degree, they said that Accounting and Supply Chain skills really won't help at all. Essentially what I got from their additional comments was that the only uses for a bachelor's degree is to be able to have study skills in seminary and to relate with parishioners on a higher level than a hs diploma. It made me think again of how valuable getting a BA really is to me.
I've contacted the diocese's vocation director, and talked with some diocesan priests, and, while impressed, I don't feel called to the diocesan priesthood. There are very few options for me spiritual director-wise, because either the priest is (at the very least, un-traditional and dissenting, at the most) heterodox, or he has too many spiritual directees (because he's a great priest), or he's in another city (an hour away) which presents a transportation problem. I still have to finish my search around the area for a good spiritual director.
When I said
Time is short, and it's time to fulfill God's desire.
I meant time is short for me. I wasn't putting any constraint on God, nor am I a Modernist (can't stand those people!). It's something I can't explain, it's just a kind of push saying 'time is short, and you gotta work on what you are called to.' That's not satisfactory, I know, and it's not satisfactory to me: I want to understand what it means; but maybe it's not for me to understand right now. It's also partly because of what tlimon, said "Saints are made in times like these." I've noticed this message ever since I visited the FSSP seminary in NE this last March.
ZDHayden, I definitely understand how you want to get to Latin class! There's usually one class per semester that's like that, such as Italian class. The instructor is like a mother to the entire class, amazing at teaching, and I really enjoy Italian. My knowledge of Italian and English have definitely supplemented my understanding of Latin, learning some of the conjugations, which is always fun to find when praying the Divine Office!
I will definitely think and pray about if I'm saying "By this time...I'll know," and stop it, and go by God's time. I will say that I have not yet made my mind up, and will not decide until later (in God's time). I'm extraordinarily grateful for your advice to watch out for bad judgments made in haste or by emotion. I'm also very grateful for your keen insight, ZDHayden, regarding humility and patience. Heaven knows that I need that, and it doesn't hurt for God to purify me for His Work. I will definitely work on that and work on those virtues.
I'm very grateful for all of your advice and wisdom. I will work on implementing what I can, and as always, keep praying.
Paul in MI