Ok, my situation is that I am 23 yrs. old and I have been discerning, if that’s what I am doing at all, for about 3-4 yrs. I don’t have a spiritual director or talked to the priests at my parish yet. I have visited the Dominican sisters and the Sisters of Charity before and felt that these two places may not be for me. What I am asking advice on is this:
I came across information on the Carmelite order from Utah and really, really wanted to come and visit them. However, it’s been about 4 months since I got the information. Recently, I met my old confirmation teacher and I kinda mentioned to him that I was looking into becoming a religious and he suggested that I talked to the priest about it. I can’t decide whether I should talk to the priest first or go ahead and contact the Carmelite monastery first. I am giving myself stomach ache just trying to decide what to do. I am not someone who talk to others a lot, especially when it’s about something so life changing. Also, I am very indecisive and hesitant even though it’s something I really want to do. I also tend to talk myself out of things and give my self excuses. So if you can give advice that would be great, or links to other threads with similar problems, or maybe I just need some encouragement. Maybe I am just ranting here.
By the way, I didn’t have any problem with visiting the Dominican Sisters or the Sisters of Charity. Maybe it’s due to the fact that I wasn’t the one initiating the process for those two visit and I will be the one doing it on this time. I am feeling guilty about being hesitant, yet I can’t seem to bring myself to make a decision. In any case, thanks in advance for all of your opinions, advice, encouragement, etc.