Hello, starting from November 2008 I have been in a dark hole religiously; mortal sin simply continued to pile and I felt at times empty and sometimes in deep dispair. About late January the worst of this darkness had gone, and I had dealt with the worst and habitual sins that plagued my essence. As of now I’ve simply kept going hoping to find the strength to believe that I could confess my sins without worry that I was truly sorry for what I’ve done. At this point I’m not sure if I deserve confession; I’ve been keeping most sin from recuring, all except anger at others when I see them flaunting their own sins without a care in the world.
Anyways the point of this thread is that I had let Lent go through my fingers and now I’m ten days in with the realization that I have done nothing. The major problem is I don’t know if I should do anything for Lent since I’m still struggling to return to regular prayer nightly. I have little vigor of either spirit or physical and even with full meals I feel unable to work my hardest in physically challenging classes like Weight Training; I had gone one day without a morning meal and ended up working at very low capacity in my morning weight training class.
To end this I know I’m making excuses to skip Lent but I don’t know what to do, especially since I have a pessimistic view on myself, others, and my relationship with God at this moment. Any comment at all would be helpful.