I am posting here, because I am hoping SOMEONE out there will have an answer for me, or be able to give me some advice, or point me in a dieraction that I hsaven’t already been in.
Here’s my story. I am 39 years, old, and for the life of me, I have just never been able to find a companion. I have not so much as ever even been in any kind of serious relationship. The extent of my dating life has been a girl I dated for a month 17 years ago, which I broke off because the girl had some mental issues, and I felt that I could do betther than that, and then last year, I dated a girl from a dating site, which was going in the right direction, but she broke it off because she lived 2 hours away, and her being out of work and such, dating anyone was too much for her.
Ever since I was a little boy, I dreamed of one day growing up and getting married, and having a family. I was still a teenager when my sisters got married, and I remember them calling when each of their kids were born, and them coming to visit, and me playing with all the kids, thinking to myself, “I can’t wait till the day comes that I have this”.
Fast forward to now, and I am 20 years out of high school, and still can’t so much as even get a girl interested in talking to me, let alone get to a point where I am seeing someone. I have one by one watched all of my cousins, second cousins, everyone I went to school with, everyone I played with on my street growing up, and even kids that I knew because they were kids of my parents’ friends, or coworkers, all get married and start their families one by one, year after year. My cousins all found their mates when they were in their early 20’s…as have most other people in my life I have known. Just 2 weeks ago, my second cousin announced the birth of her second child. She is in her early 20’s. As she posted the picture of herself on Facebook if her laying in her hospital bed with her newborn baby, and her other kid cuddled beside her, I thought to myself, “why can’t I have this?” Even my sister’s friends, who’s kids were 8 and 9 years old when I moved to Connecticut in '99 are all married, or at least in a relationship, and they all have kids, who are 4 and 5 years old now.
My question is, is there ANY hope for me at all when it comes to finding a companion? Or did God put me here to be alone?
I have had my profile on just about every dating site you can name, I’ve tried going out talking to girls in bars, I’ve tried joining singles clubs, I’ve gone to church activiteis, and as we speak I’m looking into seeing what activities the church has here in the town that I have just moved back to, just to try to get myelf out there and meet people. I even paid over $900 to join a dating service back in 2006, that turned out to be a complete ripoff. The very few dates I go on with people I meet on dating sites end up going nowhere.