I would like to ask you for an advice. A year ago, I had relationship with the girl - I was at the last year of my university. I wanted to have a girlfriend and I convinced myself that she is right person for me. I started to date her but I could feel that it is not good - we had a problem to find common topic and it was not good relationship. After one month of the relationship a strong idea that I should become a priest came to my mind. I was really against it and was trying to push it away. Fortunately, we have broke up and it helped me a lot. I felt again ok and my thoughts about priesthood left. Only sometimes when there was some discussion about priest - I started to feel a fear that I could become also a priest. But besides that I did not have at all ideas in my mind that God is calling me to the priesthood. I was studying hardly and working and enjoying my life. After a half year, I met another girl - I was attracted to her but after the previous experience I was extremely afraid to start new relationship - so I was trying to make a good friendship with her and did not try to date her. After some time, it has changed and we started to date - it was nice, romantic and I have enjoyed those times. However, when we became a couple - my ideas about the priesthood started again - it was connected with strong depressions and anxiety. It seems to me that I am somehow afraid of becoming a priest. At this time, I am still in the relationship and I like her just the problem is that these thoughts do not allow me to love her fully. I am trying to pray to God so he will show me the way but seems I do not pray in a good way or enough as I do not receive any answer. The ideas about the priesthood are really strong and I do not want to suppress them - on the other hand I am somehow sure that if we would break up I would not have these thoughts so strong and even I think they would not appear again. I have never had longer relationship than this one. I was dating many girls but it ended really quickly - either me or them escaped from these relationships. My question and doubts are whether these ideas are from God or it is just some protection mechanism of my mind how to protect myself and escape from the relationship to avoid having a broken heart. It seems strange for me that these ideas pop up only when I am in the relationship and not when I am single. Do u have some advice how I should proceed as this state do not make me happy and sometimes I feel I should escape from the relationship. On the other hand she is extremely nice girl and I consider her as one of the best girls I have ever met and it could be stupid to loose her if these thoughts about the priesthood are not from God. I did not tell her about my feelings - should I tell her about it? Do u have some similar experience? I am was speaking with two priests about it and one told me that when God calls us - it should not be connected with the fear and depressions another suggested me to pray more so God will show me the way. I do not know how to continue, I am loosing all the passion from my life, starting to not like my work any more that I have loved before and do not enjoy anything I did before. Do u have some advises?