I have not been to confession for several months, but would like to go before Christmas. As far as I can determine, none of the sins are mortal, but I feel like I should feel "sorrier" for them before I go to confession. My big sin is a habitual one, done frequently out of compulsion. I recognize that it's still a sin, and I don't want to do it anymore, but I also know that it's highly unlikely that I will avoid it. I am pursuing counseling and psychiatric help for the compulsive behavior, but am not in a place where the compulsion has lessened at all. The place I am right now, mentally speaking, could probably be best defined as relapse, after a brief period where I avoided the compulsion almost entirely (I'm aware that there may be more than just my brain at work as far as that goes.) It could also be described using the words of St. Augustine, "Lord, make me chaste, but not yet." :p
How does a person determine that they are contrite "enough" to go to confession? I have caught myself in the self-talk that says to engage the compulsion and then just go to confession, but I know that is sinful, too. It makes me feel like any remorse I feel must not be genuine.