So, I just finished up my first year of nursing school and I’m scheduled to sit for the LPN boards at the end of this month. I’m also signed up for 60 hours of unpaid cooperative work experience (CWE) starting next week. Here’s the thing- I am DREADING this CWE but I feel like I have to do it or I will be letting my husband and my parents down.
I had a terrible time with anxiety and panic attacks throughout the school year. Now that I’ve had a month away from school, I’m back into a routine with my two young children (2 and 3 yrs. old), and my anxiety level has went way down and the suffering is much more tolerable. Basically, I feel like I’m mellowing out and starting to enjoy life again. But now I have to do 2 weeks of 12 hour shifts and I’m nervous that my anxiety is going to be triggered again. I just feel like I need more TIME to chill before my second year of nursing begins.
But I can’t bring myself to tell my husband this. I think he’ll be upset with me, and disappointed in me. Do I “suck it up” and go through with this? Or do I speak up for myself and do what’s best for ME? Is this selfishness, or part of being healthy?