I’m a 19 yr. old male college student, I’ve never had a girlfriend before because of various reasons (“too shocked and confused to function” syndrome, “too fast to fall in love” illness, “too fast to quit on courtship” sickness), If I’m not mistaken, the readings today are about praying for something, anything, in a proper way, not just to indulge our desires or something, this kind of reading made me thought about having a girlfriend, I know that I want to have a girlfriend, but It feels like it’s not yet time or something, because I don’t have a strong feeling to connect, or to “get to know” someone (a girl/any girl my type), but I do however somewhat feel like this girl, or that girl subtly wants me to talk to her in some sorts, it’s really nerve-wrecking, but I almost always come to the conclusion that: “It’s just me” ^_^, not to mention that recently I only feel that strong about having a girlfriend if I see couples my age, or even younger, holding hands, hugging, walking close together, all the lovers say and do.
Given the fact that I don’t feel strong about any girl I know, or any girl that I see, am I in denial when I say that I only want to have a girlfriend, right now, because I want what they have?, or is feeling somewhat jealous of what couples have part of wanting to have a relationship?
I just wanted some intellegent opinions on this matter, for I always see a lot of beautiful girls anywhere I go, but can’t seem to take enough courage to approach even just the one I like, when I’m far from them, I think about saying this, and saying that, or asking this and that, but when I get just 2-5 meters (this is a rough estimate) closer, I tend to forget what I was going to say, or just stop thinking all together, especially if she’s amazingly beautiful, I tend to think about possible rejection as a reality, maybe this is just the devil telling me to tell myself these negative things or something, but even if I pray for the strength, why does the devil win? is it because I’m in a state of mortal sin, that God lets me be this timid towards others?, what kind of prayer must I pray for me to not feel like I’m no good in this kind of situation? but what if I was just being simplistic about approaching her?, How do I know that approaching her is God’s will? maybe this is some kind of fear that I have huh?, the fear of letting go or being let loose by someone that is not part of God’s plan for me, I mean this happens in break-ups right?
GOD LOVES YOU>