I am so upset right now.
I have needed to go to Confession now for weeks and have been unable to go because there is nobody to watch the kids. DH has been working every Saturday, my mom and dad are too busy on the week-ends and haven’t been around. I haven’t received Communion in a long time because of this.
DH was supposed to have today off work, so I planned on going today. DH tells me last night that he had to get up this morning and go over to his buddy’s house to help him fix a car. He made this sound like something that would only take a couple of hours. I asked him if this was going to take all day, he said no. I informed him that he needs to be back here by 3:00 so I can go to Church. He said OK.
He left this morning and has been gone ALL DAY and he is not answering his cell phone. I am so angry at him right now not only that it is almost 3 and he is nowhere to be found, but just that he takes off like this all day as if he has no worries or responsibilities. I have had these kids for TWO WEEKS straight with out any break and I had several errands I needed to run today while I FINALLY had someone to take the kids. I am so angry that he thinks he can just take off and do whatever he wants. These are HIS kids too and sometimes I NEED A BREAK! I have lost all of my patience with them and I just don’t feel like I am in a state to be a very good mom right now.
I"m sorry, I guess I just needed to vent right now. I have until 4:30 to get to confession and if he comes back in time, I just don’t know if I can go in this state of mind. I feel such rage right inside right now and I know this could be my last chance to go for at least another two weeks until DH has a Saturday off again.
I just don’t know what to do…I don’t even know that it matters because apparently DH FORGOT that I needed to leave and probably won’t come home until tonight when he thinks it will be time for us to go out and party.
Somehow I think I’m going to be spending this New Years Eve alone.