My husband is screwing me (pls excuse) on the divorce, last minute. My parents may be involved.
I found out that being beaten with a fire poker as a child (as my father was) can cause 1., seizures and if not that then spasms and 2. Post-traumatic stress Disorder, anxiety, a panic disorder, and other disorders, so I sent my father an e-mail, for which I am afraid to go to sleep for fear of his raping me in my sleep, I realized he does this, whether consciously or not I don't know, I feel compelled to lay down, pass into oblivion, and wake up in pain, fear, anger, exhaustion, barely able to move a muscle. That's his reaction when you're nice to him. Similar to my husband--his reasons I don't know other than that his father fought in WWII.
Afraid to go to sleep but have to talk to the lawyer tomorrow and maybe get on a plane asap. Supposed to be talking to Catholic Charities here about safe housing and Project Rachel.
Everything was looking up, I thought, but as usual he (my husband), my mother and my father get together to screw me. They made a pact years ago and just won't give it up. My doctor back then warned me about it. They just can't let go and you can't tell them that. My husband found financial profit from this situation. He can't give me back my babies and he can't unharm my son but at least he could just let this go. But no.
I know this is ugly but that's the point, it is, everything was supposed to be just peachy--he's been play-acting for months.
And the psychologist I talk so much about (hoping against hope, taking it on faith) took a two-week vacation the moment I left town after promising to be around if I still needed him.
Feeling generally betrayed, worse. I don't even know if I can trust my son, my mother has him under her control.