I got really angry with my mom and it has been a week since I got angry with her. We were talking on the telephone and I got angry with her because she has ruined my relationship with a lot of my relatives because she speaks badly of me. She has also done that to my two other sisters who are not speaking to her.
I tried calling her today to try to make up with her and tell her I am sorry for getting angry with her. But I fear I will get angry again with her.
It feels so good and peaceful not talking or seeing her because she is so negative and she doesn’t like to own up to the damage she has done to my sisters and myself.
She likes to hang up the telephone on me when I try to explain how wrong she is in being mean to me and my sisters. She has been betraying me for many years and yet I try to be nice to her.
I would like to go to confession to confess my anger with my mom but I feel I need to first clear thinks up with her and tell I am sorry for being angry with her. But I fear another fight will start.
I need advice. Should I go to confession first or should I try to clear things up with my Mom first? If I have to clear things up with my mom I most likely will need another week for me to calm down in my anger. I don’t like getting angry with her. But she knows how to press the right buttons in me.
I don’t feel that I am in God’s grace and I don’t like that feeling either.
I guess I better get the courage to call my mom so I can be in God’s grace after I go to confession.
What do you all advise?