I just want to say that we must always be ready to accept and be joyful when God answers a prayer. Glory be to God! He knows exactly what is most effective for me.
For several months now I’ve been praying that I may become more humble since I’m a proud and sometimes contemptuous person. I see this flaw in myself and have always despised it, praying to learn humility as Christ is.
My prayers were put in motion due to a dream I had one night where a “seer” woman that I do not know took me aside and told me " You will have a very difficult life if you don’t practice humility" This started the ball rolling because although it might have only been a dream, I was given a gift through dreaming since I’ve been very young, and I usually know which ones to take seriously. In other words, yes, “I see dead people” LOL! I also am given messages/visions of God or our Lady through dreams. No this isn’t an every day occurence… only occurence on a “need to know basis”
For several years now, I’ve been suffering with joint pain and inflamation which would travel from one joint to another, as well as fatigue. Sometimes I would suspect that I had sprained an ankle or wrist… not being able to use my limb or hand or barely being able to walk. Now I understand that this has been going on a long time so maybe my dream was just my subconscience playing with me, but I know the difference between regular dreaming and what I call “message dreaming”… they just feel so different when you wake up (for me anyway).
The answer to my prayers for humility is that I have just been diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. For this past year I’ve been offering my pain for the conversion of souls or other intentions, and I will certainly continue to do so. Am I afraid of the long term effects of RA? most definitely, but that’s another prayer intention in the works. I’ve recently been praying that I put more trust in Jesus, that I learn not to doubt and to accept everything He deems that I need for spiritual growth.
My prayers were answered, although I do wish our Lord would have done it with a lighter hand. However, I know that He understands my special needs in growing spiritually… He knows how terribly stubborn I am and that I probably need a heavy hand to move forward.