When I was a young man I was catholic perhaps because I didn’t know any different. Some might say I had been brainwashed.
The arguements of two visiting JW’s was enough to convince me the CC was not only in error but had seriously erred. How come this information was not available to my former teachers?
In particular just prior to their visit, I had recently returned home from a mass to the honour of St Blaise. We had had the annual ‘blessing of throats’. The JW’s found this highy amusing.
In the weeks that followed, I began reading the JW stuff and was convinced this was the truth.
However, for the first time in my entire life, I had experienced ‘raw’ protestantism and I was not impressed. In the Catholic churches that I had attended there had always been a ‘sense of community’. A sense that I was part of a larger family, that in the social sense I was never alone. I had dozens of brothers and sisters. Now suddenly, I had only a handful.
Being a social animal, this was very challenging. Also I felt that I was in the spotlight. In the catholic church, as part of the community, ‘the self’ is largely hidden in the community. That is not necessarily a bad thing. I suppose it is the same in a very large human family of siblings. The individual it seemed, gets their value as much from the community as they do one’s own self-identity.
Suddenly I felt I was ‘under the spotlight’. It felt as though I was some alien being, on a slide in a laboratory being looked at under a microscope. I realised the significance of ‘I’ and there was no sense of the ‘us’!
I was rather fortunate that I went to our local priest as there wwere now problems I had with catholicism which were annoying me. I was not a happy man and I DEMANDED ANSWERS.
Bless him, he gave me a copy of a book [which by a peculiar quirk of fate, I inherited some 30-years later upon his death]. The book was about Catholic Apologetics. I began to read.
I was on a journey of discovery. I was beginning to learn about my faith, I mean REALLY LEARN for the FIRST TIME!
That book remained my constant companion. I learned a lot. Eventually, had to give it back. I suppose I owe my understanding and committment to the JW’s. They took me away for a short time which was something that needed to happen, but above all, they gave me the greatest gift possible. They gave me the motivation to find out about my faith. As a life-long Catholic, suddenly I was a convert.
Lots of the answers I give on this forum are what I learned from that book.I have never looked back.