Several times a year I find myself attending a mass, in part stemming from a desire to connect my personal connection with catholic spirituality and teaching to a collective experience of worship, prayer, etc. Although I am not Catholic, I do feel a connection to the tradition and have a desire to move more deeply into the faith. The problem for me is the near visceral reaction I have to a mass that seems almost entirely stripped of beauty and mystery. It does not connect me to God. In fact, I have a difficult time making it through an entire mass without feeling so turned off by the awful, cheesy music and sterile atmosphere that I sometimes end up leaving early. I used to regularly attend 2-3 hour Russian Orthodox services, so it’s not an issue of stamina. Watching videos of the Latin rite makes me wonder what happened to the beauty of liturgy that reflected God’s beauty and mystery. Any ideas on how I should approach this?