History: hubby has history (2007) of porn usage which landed us in counseling. Made me insecure and feel inadequate. Not internet but dvds.
Fast forward: Hubby and I have been in marriage counseling since April for other reasons. So one day he is showing me his FB page and I see he liked this page that is only for men. Has muscle cars but most young hot chicks with boobs and rear. I didn’t like it then but didn’t pursue it. So the last month or so we have been really having problems and his ED is back. He had also been refusing me up until several days ago. He has had 2 physicals and takes Viagra. So last week I went on his FB page to copy a pic of him with our boys. I come across thois page with breasts hanging out. So I text him and nicely ask him to please not like those pages out of respect for me. He becomes furious, we fight and it ends up with him telling me he wants a divorce. So we didn’t talk for 2 days. Saturday while he was in the shower, I searched the history on his iphone and although I didn’t find porn, I sae he went on this website known for lowriders and girls. While he was in shower I asked him if he was looking at naked girls online. He denied it but by the look on his face I could tell he was lying. I told him even if I had proof he was going to lie? He insisted he had not and asked me to show him. I showed him and he still denied it. So of course we fought and he insists his friend sent him the link. I told him I know he’s not on there for the cars because he doesn’t like lowriders! The fight got ugly and I couldn’t make him understand how even looking at hot chicks in bikinis make me feel and bring back those old feelings. He doesn’t understand!
So, is it a sin on his end? Am I wrong?
We have counseling tomorrow and I need to explain to him without fighting why I feel the way I do. He tells me “I’ve never SAID anything to you to make you feel this way.” Correct, it is what you have done, not said. Please help.