Hello again everyone!
So, I’m worried AGAIN if I have done mortal sin after being angry to my grandmother after she “disturbed” me while praying. I defined it as a disturbed though because I was literally feeling disturbed hehe. While praying, she poked me then she said “Why did you blah blah blah blah blah and says bad word” so I paused for a while and I said to her “Don’t say that (bad word) then I stared at her for awhile then continued praying” Then I feel frustrated and then started to cry and saying in my mind “I’m sorry Lord! Help me with this!” after I finished praying I blew the candle, wiped my tears then looked at my grandma “PLEASE GIVE ME SOME RESPECT WHILE PRAYING I DON’T WANT TO COMMIT SIN AGAIN SO PLEASE HELP ME AS WELL! I NEED RESPECT RESPECT RESPECT! HUHUHUHUH I SINNED AGAIN” then I went to my bed crying.
I know that she knows I’m praying because I lit up the candle. This situation often happens, that’s why I don’t want my grandma to wake up at midnight because I’m still praying around that time and I really don’t want to be disturbed while praying. But it usually happens. And for your information, my grandma usually says bad words that’s why every time she says that, I’m really triggered and my voice will raise. I know that I should still respect my grandma because she’s my grandma but it’s just that my patience is not that long enough.
As what I said on my previous posts, I’m really scrupulous and I want to know when to define anger as a mortal sin.