Please pray for me. I need all the help I can get.
I’m still very depressed that my ex-boyfriend (quasi-fiance) left me. He broke my heart in a way it has never been broken before. And I’ve been around a while.
I still want a child, but worry that it’s too late for me, biologically, anyway.
I still haven’t found work and I’m down to my last $1500. I only get a small unemployment check.
I’m really floundering. Spiritually, I’m trying to get closer to God. I attend Adoration almost daily, attend Mass, sometimes several times/week. I’ve begun volunteering for two Catholic charitable foundations. But, I don’t feel his presence very much. Sometimes, I have an overwhelming hotness in my chest when I pray, other times, nothing. (I know this is not uncommon, not feeling a presence when praying, but right now, it’s the only thing sustaining me.)
I’ve made a lot of good contacts and received prayers and comfort from many, but I still see no way out of my current situation from a practical standpoint. Right now, I’m living with my parents. I have asthma. My mother is a HEAVY smoker and won’t smoke outside when she’s cold. I’ve had 3 asthma attacks since moving home and no health insurance. Once the windows are closed, I’ll be doomed by smoke. I have nowhere else to go. I don’t know what to do. I’m working hard at finding work. I apply for everything I’m qualified for, no matter where in the country the position is.
Please pray for me. Please pray that something comes through for me. If I could simply get back together with my ex, that would solve so many of my problems: heart-ache, a place to live and share rent, having someone to lean on.
Please pray! Thank you.