I don't know if this is the right place to post but I really need some advice and would be so grateful if someone takes the time to read my question.
I am 28 and all I have ever wanted to do was get settle down, get married and have children. I think that I am an attractive, caring and educated young woman. I have had a few relationships with good men who would have done anything for me, but I ended these because I didn't feel in-love and wanted to be sure about the person when I married them. And generally speaking, I have always attracted a lot of male attention but very rarely had any reciprical interest. About 6 months ago, after being single for about two years I met a man: clever, funny, caring, kind, considerate and with lots of quirky personality traits that totally complement my own idiosyncracies. He is amazing and at the start I thought that finally God had given me the gift of a potential husband.
He has expressed his love for me through both his words and actions and I can tell he is considering the next stage, eg engagement etc. However it is now dawning on me that I don't know if I share his feelings, despite how amazing he is:any girl would want him! I am torn in half...I desperately want to settle down with someone as amazing as him but the thought of it literally make me nearly pass out with terror (I have almost fainted with anxiety over this).
So stressed was I that I did something very very stupid which I totally regret. I paid for a psychic email reading, and the woman told me that I have not yet my soulmate and thats why I feel so indecisive. I now know why psychics are bad news. I feel so utterly trapped and powerless. I have been praying and praying and praying for my feelings towards him to change, so so deeply and earnestly but i don't know if that is something we can pray for. I am ashamed that I consulted a psychic because now I feel that my future is set in stone and I have lost what God says we always have with Him : hope. I am so distressed that I can't bear the thought of going on like this, I can't live a life with such anxiety and bitter disappointment (I'm sorry if I sound weak, it is how I feel at the minute).
Please please someone advise me. Maybe pray for me if you have ten seconds. I am so so lost and unhappy. I just want the normal simple things that I thought God wanted for me to. Please please help me.