I am currently in very low favor in the eyes of our lord. I am a very bad Catholic who is a serious sinner and has serious doubts about God. The people at my church say its inappropriate for me to attend mass and not receive communion. I cannot receive communion as I am not confirmed and have committed so many mortal sins that God has not accepted my confessions at this point. I admit I lost my cool and swore at the parishioners who told me I could not attend and the priest said I was not to attend mass at his parish anymore if I couldn’t control my anger. The priest told the other parishioners that i was allowed to attend mass and not take communion and said it was not disrespectful.
I do not plan on going to mass after this toxic incident. What should i do?