I haven’t posted or had the time to be on this board lately. So busy with my 3 year old and 2 month old.
I just need guidance, prayers and advice.
Bankruptcy is most probably in our near future, and it is not because I have been shopping at the Gap with credit cards or living beyond our means. My husband owns a logging business. The business has been struggling, to say the least. Cost of operation is exceeding business income. The landowners are paying rates that are so low, it is difficult for businesses like ours to survive. You guys, my husband works so hard. He puts in 16 hour days (no lie). It is so difficult to see my husband get up at 2:00 in the morning and not come home till 6or 7:00 at night to make a living for his family. He is a good man, hard worker, and even though we owe much money, whenever he sees the sunrise in the morning he thanks God every day for the blessing of that day.
He is desperately trying not to go claim bankruptcy. His ambition is still there. I just don’t think there is a way out. He is not ready to face that yet.
I am so stressed, to say the least. This has consumed my mind so much, that I don’t enjoy my babies. My mind is a million miles away, and when my 3 year old tries to tell me something, she has to say “mommy” about 3 times before I realize she is talking to me. I am noy sleeping. Yes, it is affecting our family. My husband is dealing with it better than I. He still can have a smile on his face. I on the other hand am in despair/depression. Doesn’t help that I have post partum also. I have been praying to the Lord to at least help us pay the bills. To let the logging business get better so that we can continue. I am also praying that Jesus help me let it go and reassure me that he is in control. “Let go and let God” is what I learned in cursillo. It is so difficult to do. There is a reason for everything. Sometimes, I wonder.
We have met with our accountant. He looked at us and said,“at least your not sitting here telling me that your children have a terminal illness” Yes, there are worse things in life than bankruptcy. It kills me that our credit will be hurt. I was always on top of our credit scores with very high fico scores, but currently our credit scores have been declining.
My husband loves what he does. It is in his blood. He grew up in the business and it is a way of life for many other families in the area we live in. We are not bad people. Just people trying to make it.
My husband says that the challenges in life help us build character and make us better people.
Anyone out there been through bankruptcy?
Please say a prayer that God give us strength to go through this.
St. Jude patron saint of impossible cases. I feel so silly praying for finances and ahve never believed in praying about money. We don’t want to get rich. Just pay the bills. But at this point, we need the prayers.