So on Wednesday I went in front of an interview panel to see if I have a vocation to the Priesthood, after four years of discerning and going through the hurdles with the Vocations Director and doing a Psychological Exam i’m just emotionally exhausted. After doing all this for so long to then sit face with the Bishop, two lay women and another Priest for an interview, it feels bizarre.
On top of this I feel as if the interview went horribly, I think looking back that I didn’t make myself clear, I repeated myself a few times and that it only lasted only 10 minutes or so. The fact that it was sorter than I expected than it was concerns me.
I also worry about my grades, I haven’t went to university, I dropped the ball when it came to the end of Secondary School and that I also only made the minimum requirement for the amount of grades you need to enter seminary. I made it up however by going to a technical and doing a few courses there which helped me.
Now I have to wait for the letter from Bishop on whether I am in or not and it makes me just so nervous and scared what the response is. I just constantly thinking hes going to say no and that will hurt very badly.
I write this just to get my feelings off my chest and if anyone had to go through this, could you tell me of your experience. I also ask please pray for because right now I need it.