Ok so here it is... an utterly embarassing subject to post.
My wife and I had a rare opportunity alone and she decided it would be an opportune moment to renew the sacrament so to speak.
Now just before the act while she was washing/getting prepared I was alone in the bedroom and decided to look at some innocent photos of me and my wife... but I did this to whet the appetite so to speak. At the time I thought it was ok to do since we were about to engage in the act (and she is my wife afterall) but now I look back at it as a basically selfish act and I should have waited till she was there before consenting to arousal through proper physical communication. I wouldn't normally look at my wife *that *way unless we were going to engage in the marital act.
Shall I go to communion tomorrow? Is this a sin of grave matter. I honestly wouldn't have consented to it if i thought it was sinful. Now I think it was..