In all that we profess in the Creed.
In the Bible.
In the Holy Spirit, the Father, the Son; the Trinity.
As noted in my sig below, I was away from the Church (2002-2013) and was sinful during that time. Before that, (1999-2002) I was very close to Him, because of His Graces and Blessing and Gifts.
I never quit believing in Catholicism, our Faith, or our Savior; Heaven, Hell, Sin or Purgatory. I guess I quit believing in myself. So we have recently returned to our Faith, Mass, Reconciliation, partaking in the Eucharist, and I’ve prayed more Rosaries since Feb. 6 than I had my entire life, times 10. I also just started a Catechism learning class for adults here in our diocese. I’m reading the Bible and being more conscious of what I am doing, spiritually and mindfully.
My heart and soul believe. But my ‘head’ keeps telling me, I’m wrong. That there is no way that this is true, that this is possible. It’s hard, when I have these thoughts coming at me during prayer, during Mass. “Our God” wouldn’t let these things happen, as non-Christians might say, or atheists; therefore, this is a big fairy tale.
**I believe. **I want to believe. I KNOW to believe. How can I overcome the weak human mind that I am feeling, and the temptations of disbelief? I also believe that these are temptations from evil. I had fallen away once before, and when I came back to the Faith, the devil came at me a different way, and at it clearly, and so obviously failed. I do think he’s trying to plant these doubts, telling me I’m too ‘smart’ to believe these things; coming at me a new way that I’m not capable of handling very well. Surely, it isn’t because I’m not welcome back? I know that not to be true, but that is what I think the devil is trying to lead me to. GRRRRR
I ask Him for His help. I ask Mary, our Saints and the souls before me for their intercession. Perhaps that is why I’m here; to ask yours. I do hope to get an appointment to visit with the Priest soon. I continue to pray; to celebrate His Life and Resurrection; His Saving Graces; His dying for our sins. I continue to say the Rosary, and prayers, even though I can’t ‘feel’ it like I want to. Then that opens up to “If you can’t feel it, it isn’t real.” I KNOW it’s real, but my human mind isn’t accepting it as easily and readily as my heart and soul are.
Please don’t be hard on me. I’m confused, yet faithful. I WILL continue to believe and do my best following His Path for me. It’s like a ‘dark night’ of the soul, that I recently was told about. How do I overcome? Or hear Him? I hope some of this makes sense… it’s confusing enough in my head!
Thank you for your thoughts, fellow Catholics; God Bless you.