Prayer does not substitute for adequate medical care. You need to stay on your medication more than you need to use contraceptives.
I have been requested by my Gp to go on to a contraception of any description for his peace of mind .
Many people with bipolar are constantly looking reasons to get off their medication. When it becomes obvious that a person is not going to be responsible enough to regularly take their medication, the GP’s concern is then to try to prevent the suffering people with bipolar cause others when they go off their medication and behave irresponsibly.
Objectively speaking, you have an obligation to stay on your medication and abstain from sex. My own advise is to see see all sexual sins in the light of our call to chastity. Contraceptives is a violation of our call to be chaste, but if you’re already behaving unchastely, I am not a believer that you commit two sins by using contraceptives. However unchaste contraceptives are, you’re not being a more virtueous person because you didn’t use a contraceptive while you were engaging in unchaste acts. If anything, you are only further opening the door to allowing your sin to hurt more people.
Though the thing about contraceptives is that in putting yourself on them to avoid pregnancy, you are ultimately allowing a part of yourself to already consent to engage in fornication. And you are doing it in such a way that you are saying “Look fertility get out of my way so I can have what I want.”
So it is all motivated by lust, but the desire to fornicate without contraceptives is not motivated by chastity.
I have said NO for several months now. I dont want to be pregnant again and yet when Im manic I cant stop myself from seeking men out. I no longer know what to do … I feel so lost and alone . Any advice ??
You have a moral obligation to control your behavior and to do whatever it takes to control your behavior. This would mean staying on medication and getting whatever therapy and help you need.