I am different, I just dont know why. Since I was a little child I have felt disconnected from God. I have never been able to comfortabley say that I believe that God is real. And worse I have never been able to say that I accept Jesus as my lord and a Savior as so many people say. I am catholic, raised catholic and go to mass. I am 43. I have raised my thoughts to God at least once every day since I was a child. I have prayed with dedication that last couple of years because I am now painfully aware that something is wrong with me.
The best way to sum this up is this. If you read about a famous historical figure from a few hundred years back you may say hmmm thats interesting but that person is just a figure described in a book, you dont know him and have never met him. He is a stranger that once lived but is now gone.
Is sad for me because God is supposed to be accepting of all people. Jesus is supposed to be a perfect lover. But not for me. I feel no connection so I can only assume that something is very wrong with me or everyone else is faking it.