I feel that it’s wrong to ask for prayers for this because in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t amount to much. But my heart is hurting over a past relationship.
I dated John 2 years ago. In fact, this is the time of year he broke it off with me. I really felt that he was “the one”. I met some very dear friends of him one evening and one of them made a point to tell me that he’s “always so good to women and ends up getting treated badly”. I thought to myself that the last thing I wanted to do was hurt him. Anyway, I saw him a few days later, he told me again how much his friends liked me,and he left. Permanently. Said he didn’t know what he wanted from dating, and some other excuses.
I see him occassionally because he lives in my neigborhood. And I’ve recently seen him with a woman. I hate to say it, but it hurts. I feel jealous and I wonder what she has that I don’t. Why did he pick her and not me? Does he maybe somehow enjoy being treated badly? Is it a comfortable pattern for him?
I’ve prayed in the past about this situation and for God to reunite us, but I don’t know if I was ready for that, or if it would even be the right thing for me. I do know that I would handle this (and any other ) relationship differently. It kind of left me feeling that I was only seen as body parts and not as a worthwhile human being, an I am never going down a road that makes me feel that way again.
May I ask for some prayers that if it be God’s will that John and I reunite and have the kind of relationship God wants us to have; and if I have to let go, to please allow me to let go and find what is right for me?