I'm not in a state of grace ,if i pray the novena will it help me?
If you are not in the state of grace, leave no stone unturned until you find a confessor and then confess your sins and receive absolution. Phone and make an appointment or catch a priest before or after Mass. This is what really helps. Praying a novena will not absolve you of your sins.
Fr. Vincent Serpa, O.P.