Grace…what you said about St. Peter really says it all, I think.
A man who actually lived among the Apostles, became the first Pope, and was taught directly by Jesus Himself, fell and fell and STILL became a Saint! Maybe the lesson is to never do a Judas Exit, but to believe in the Mercy of God to continue to lead us forward, in spite of all our mess-ups.
In the Book, Consecration to Jesus through Mary, by St. Louis de Montfort, on pages 111, and 112 it says…“there is always a great temptation to discouragement and distrust even after our sins are forgiven…like Jesus will never really give us the Graces that were meant for us now, because we spoiled it, and that the certain height we formerly Could have reached is now out of our grasp” (not the exact words, but close enough) The point being that they call this feeling a Temptation and one that needs to be seen for what it really is…A lack of Confidence in the Mercy of God.
Cardinal Billot says, "the penitent can receive something EVEN GREATER than one who has Never sinned in such ways, in that the one who Has sinned greatly, repents and then devotes himself/herself to works of mercy wholeheartedly for God for the rest of their life, whereas the person who Never sinned thus might not be so virtuous, taking for granted their state before God.
What do you think, Grace? THERESA