I was married in the Catholic church when I was 22 years old. My marriage was consummated. 2 months later, my husband died in a plane crash. We never had any children. I have lived quietly and alone for the last 8 years. I have never dated and I barely speak to anyone, let alone men.
I approached my mother with this question and she said that I could not remarry. She feels that a woman may only have one husband. Period. She feels that God has chosen for me to live a life of solitude and suffering and I should be thankful for it. She will not discuss a “sin in the making” any further.
I have spoken to my priest (after my mother spoke to him about this) who seems to agree. He is worried that I just want to marry to have sex again. Which is utter nonsense. What I really want is to be a wife and have children. I have always wanted children. Always.
Could it be true that I am meant to suffer? Because I am.