I have no idea what is in my heart at the time I was confirmed, I certainly didn’t have any notion of what it is to defend the faith with my life, but even in CCD I wasn’t sure I knew what I was supposed to be believing, because my parents just started speaking of religion out of nowhere at a later age, and stopped going to mass after a few years. I was Baptized and Confirmed on the same day.
My life since had been totally counter to “wisdom, understanding, counsel, fortitude, knowledge, piety, and fear of the Lord”. I believe in Him now, and without that I know I have no future. Do I need to be reconfirmed? Do I need to abstain from the sacrament?