Ie: when you are just talking to yourself, and reflecting on things by yourself for yourself. For instance, when you complain and whine or when you express yourself mentally. Like objecting to some aspects of Catholicism with mental swearing and complaining? For instance, there are things I say in prayer that are specifically directed at God but there are also things that I disagree with or dont like that are directed about religion but I dont directly say to him or say out loud but rather keep in the backburner of my sea of thoughts.
For example, when I have a thought that goes something along the line of “this is really stupid and pointless” or “this seems like BS” about something religion related but I didnt directly say out loud publicly or bring out during prayer, would that count as blashphemy?
Do all your thoughts, I mean each and every single one and not just the things you say in prayer… All belong to God? since he is omnipotent, omniscient, etc etc? Is there still some sense of personal mental autonomy or are all our thoughts linked to one Divine mental command center… Or Something like that.
Do you still have your thoughts to keep as your own, or will God keep a record of every mental thought? Like keep religious thoughts in prayer but keep the mundane things to yourself without necessarily having to involve religion or God?