Around Easter/Divine Mercy Sunday, I had a conversion of sorts. I was so sad that it was Easter and I was completely alone. Both my parents died last year and I wanted to see them so badly and knew that could only happen if I made it to heaven which meant making some changes in my life. I’ve been a lukewarm Catholic for years, going through the motions of attending mass but but not really there in spirit and not going to confession. Since churches were closed due to the pandemic, I made a long confession (30 years+) to God and set myself a penance and have since been praying the Divine Mercy chaplet daily and trying to be a better person and avoid sin.
Anyway, now churches are finally opening up in my area at 30% capacity and we need to make a ‘reservation’ to attend. However, I still haven’t been able to go to ‘real’ confession as it’s not open yet and I don’t know when it will be possible. I don’t know if I should make a reservation for Mass and if I can receive communion or not? Or should I let others go first who can fully participate? I watched the Pope’s urbi et orbi on youtube and know he gave us a plenary indulgence and I’ve read about it several times but still am not sure I understand it or if it even applies to me or not. I read somewhere you had to be in a state of grace at the time… Can anyone clarify for me, please?
(I hope I posted this in the correct place - sorry if I didn’t!)